i'm done.
its time to end this farce.
no more pretending,
no more lies.
we're finished.
the more i spend time near you,
the greater the hate grows.
I'm sick of it,
sick of you,
yet you just don't understand,
no matter how straightforward i am,
i.
hate.
you.
i thouht i loved.
i really did.
but as time progressed,
i began to see the truth,
i began to look past the façade.
it was time for change.
still you cling to me,
as if you truly believe
that this is just a little quarrel,
that everything is alright.
but its not.
get off of me,
back up,
and and stay the fuck away from me.
you are no longer in control,
I need to stop,
but I just can't do it.
It just feels so damn...
incredible.
This thing,
this feeling,
it's destructive.
I know.
I caused this trail of chaos
in the blink of an eye.
I obliterated the innocence
of so many souls
by tearing at their conscience
with each and every boundary
that I invade.
And I plan to do it all
again.
And again.
And again.
Because it's a thrill ride.
It makes butterflies
flutter in my stomach.
It sends a numbing sensation
throughout my body,
and it feels good.
I'm hardly aware
of those I hurt.
Nor do I care.
To have people
bow down to me
is like drinking fine wine.
To have men
all
Just standin' here,
waitin' by the phone,
waitin' on you.
Just ponderin' now,
thinkin' about fond memories,
thinkin' about you.
It's been awhile,
long time in fact,
and all i got to do
is wait a few more minutes.
The grueling wait
is killing me!
I'm impatient,
ecstatic,
to just hear your voice again.
It felt like ages have passed,
but your face
never forgotten,
an image,
moment,
captured by my heart,
though time has long since abandoned it.
I'm worried now.
Paranoid?
Definitely.
The adrenaline
is messin' with me,
playin' tricks on me.
I miss you so much,
it's almost tearing me apart.
The longing,
i don't know
h
Damn you.
How do you do it?
You slip my grasp once
because of my inability to act,
then you just
waltz right back in
after i moved on.
You're a charmer,
a snake charmer,
elegant and coyful,
poised and hypnotic.
You're all the wrong in my life,
but all of the right,
so right that you catch me off guard,
attack when i'm not looking,
i'm all but prey to you.
I've never been such a mess,
the way you just tear down
my wall of security,
and build your own.
And when you coil your arms around me
it's like the world doesn't even exist.
Just you.
And me.
My dear puppeteer,
my vengeful predator,
my force of strength,
my one an
i'm done.
its time to end this farce.
no more pretending,
no more lies.
we're finished.
the more i spend time near you,
the greater the hate grows.
I'm sick of it,
sick of you,
yet you just don't understand,
no matter how straightforward i am,
i.
hate.
you.
i thouht i loved.
i really did.
but as time progressed,
i began to see the truth,
i began to look past the façade.
it was time for change.
still you cling to me,
as if you truly believe
that this is just a little quarrel,
that everything is alright.
but its not.
get off of me,
back up,
and and stay the fuck away from me.
you are no longer in control,
I need to stop,
but I just can't do it.
It just feels so damn...
incredible.
This thing,
this feeling,
it's destructive.
I know.
I caused this trail of chaos
in the blink of an eye.
I obliterated the innocence
of so many souls
by tearing at their conscience
with each and every boundary
that I invade.
And I plan to do it all
again.
And again.
And again.
Because it's a thrill ride.
It makes butterflies
flutter in my stomach.
It sends a numbing sensation
throughout my body,
and it feels good.
I'm hardly aware
of those I hurt.
Nor do I care.
To have people
bow down to me
is like drinking fine wine.
To have men
all
Just standin' here,
waitin' by the phone,
waitin' on you.
Just ponderin' now,
thinkin' about fond memories,
thinkin' about you.
It's been awhile,
long time in fact,
and all i got to do
is wait a few more minutes.
The grueling wait
is killing me!
I'm impatient,
ecstatic,
to just hear your voice again.
It felt like ages have passed,
but your face
never forgotten,
an image,
moment,
captured by my heart,
though time has long since abandoned it.
I'm worried now.
Paranoid?
Definitely.
The adrenaline
is messin' with me,
playin' tricks on me.
I miss you so much,
it's almost tearing me apart.
The longing,
i don't know
h
Damn you.
How do you do it?
You slip my grasp once
because of my inability to act,
then you just
waltz right back in
after i moved on.
You're a charmer,
a snake charmer,
elegant and coyful,
poised and hypnotic.
You're all the wrong in my life,
but all of the right,
so right that you catch me off guard,
attack when i'm not looking,
i'm all but prey to you.
I've never been such a mess,
the way you just tear down
my wall of security,
and build your own.
And when you coil your arms around me
it's like the world doesn't even exist.
Just you.
And me.
My dear puppeteer,
my vengeful predator,
my force of strength,
my one an
I need to stop,
but I just can't do it.
It just feels so damn...
incredible.
This thing,
this feeling,
it's destructive.
I know.
I caused this trail of chaos
in the blink of an eye.
I obliterated the innocence
of so many souls
by tearing at their conscience
with each and every boundary
that I invade.
And I plan to do it all
again.
And again.
And again.
Because it's a thrill ride.
It makes butterflies
flutter in my stomach.
It sends a numbing sensation
throughout my body,
and it feels good.
I'm hardly aware
of those I hurt.
Nor do I care.
To have people
bow down to me
is like drinking fine wine.
To have men
all
The world is black and white - a complete oxy-moron. We live to die. I want to escape this reality called hell, and live forever in a dream
Current Residence: oblivion Favourite genre of music: rock, metal, alternative, classical Favourite photographer: mah friend kelsey Favourite style of art: anime/manga, need you ask? MP3 player of choice: iPawd Skin of choice: mine! Personal Quote: Death is a way of life.
Favourite Visual Artist
me.....and aeriel
Favourite Movies
PARANORMAL ACTIVITY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
apocalyptica
Favourite Writers
me
Favourite Games
idk there are a lot...Mirrors edge
Favourite Gaming Platform
ps3/wii
Other Interests
anime/manga drawing/writing pissing off my art teacher who doesnt have the balls to stand against me
I think i'm gonna make a new account. I think its time to start anew. And i think a new account might get me out of this artistic funk i've been in, and maybe finally get around to posting the rest of my Soul&Maka fanfic. I'll transfer my poems, fanfics and certain artwork pieces that i think are still ok to keep on, but the rest i'll scrap. I'll send out a new journal with a link to my new account in a week or so, so please watch that page! Thanks ^u^
Yo!!! Long time no see!!!!!!!! So, I can now post deviations regularly. Now that I have obtained a kindle fire ~IloveItplz (https://www.deviantart.com/iloveitplz) woof soot....so, hopefully I can finish that SoulxMaka fanfic I started ages ago for all of you that have been waiting for it... I also will be posting a couple of original short stories that I did during my creative writing class, so when all y'alls see it pop up on your messages, please see if ya like it!!! Awesomesauce...so expect the last 4 chapters of the SoMa here within a few days peeps, and I hope it was worth the wait. Also, if you have any ideas for a fanfic you'd like me to write, comment here and I'll see